Nothing would work.
Luther felt useless, and like he wasn't enough to even stir the boy from his sullen silence. He felt his chest heave every time he looked down at the boy and saw how still, and almost lifeless, Radius looked. Radius was broken...and Luther just wanted to be safe back at their home, and to see Radius smile and hear him giggle again. He told the albino countless times that he loved him each day that passed. But his only reply was a mutual phrase, yet his soft voice was hollow. Luther knew Radius did love him back - he had proven it only a week ago - but just the sound of that once sweet voice now so broken and hoarse...it hurt.
"Radius?..." Luther whispered softly, his hand caressing the boys face "A-are you warm enough?" he asked as his other hand very gently rubbed against the boys back. Radius shifted a little, most of his strength had returned, but his voice was still bad from all the screaming during their punishment.
Radius nodded "M-Mhm..." he replied. His tiny body curled into Luther's arms, the last thing he wanted to do was to be separated from him again. He opened one eye and looked up at his mate. He frowned when he noticed how tired Luther looked, and he weakly touched his lovers face.
"P-Ple-ase sleep...." he begged feebly, his eyes glassy. Luther looked down at him and sighed, shaking his head.
"Even if I wanted to, I can't..." He stated. His large hand cupping around Radius' pale cheek. "I have to make sure nobody separates us again....and that you don't get hurt anymore...I-I've got to protect you-"
"P-Point-l-less..." Radius breathed and looked to the side. Luther was a bit stunned, why would Radius say that?
"Wh-What do you mean? Pointless?" he asked with a perturbed and worried tone.
"It won't ever s-top..." Radius said pessimistically "W-We'll alw-ways..get h-hu-rt...th-they want us hur-rt...and th-"
"Radius...." Luther rasped quietly, "Don't-...Don't talk like that..."
"Th-They won't leave us a-alone Luther....They'll k-eep hur-hurting us an-nd w-we both kn-know..." He sniffed a bit, looking down "Th-They're gonna kill m-...us an-"
"Radius please...." Luther pleaded, his voice beginning to strain, not wanting to imagine his only love dying, it made his heart crack every time he simply saw Radius cry...which for the poor boy was a bit often, due to all he had been through, and his over-sensitivity.
"I-Its true th-though" Radius said plainly, his eyes had no hope whatsoever. They had been captured so many times, and moved to different homes but the demons always captured them just to torture their hearts, to hurt them inside and out. Over and over and over again. The hellions would not stop. "I-Its al-l they want t-to do...-"
"Stop..." Luther whispered, his head hanging low. He just wanted Radius to be happy. To hear him truly laugh, a full on laugh of pure happiness, not a faint giggle like he usually did.
But for the first time in the years of being with Radius, Luther was beginning to doubt the possibility of that ever happening...
"You're a-at least s-strong enough...t-to fight...and y-you have a st-rong-er will than-n me..." Radius' face was hidden, he was lying on his side, his small body curled into Luther's lap, which was criss-crossed. Radius was losing all hope in everything, after all of the cracks and dents in his heart and mind, he was finally beginning to break. To give up. The boy gave a shaky sigh and said,
"I'm gonna die...."
Luther tensed at the words. They echoed in his mind, and one thought pierced his heart.
...Maybe Radius was right...
Something within Luther snapped, something that made him lose all sense of quiet and gentleness...
"NO!" Luther yelled and swiftly grabbed Radius' shoulders with a firm grip. He jarred Radius body up to be face to face with the boy. The boy was wide-eyed, terrified by the sudden outburst, he trembled in Luther's hands and looked him right in the eyes.
Radius was completely frozen, stunned. The look in Luther's eyes was a vast mixture of so many emotions.
"You stop talking like this stop it!" Luther raised his voice, he was trembling as well. "You will not die! You can't!" he hollered as tears began to fill the grown mans eyes. "Because I don't even know what I would do with myself if I let you die here!!! I'd go fucking insane Radius! I</i> would die!..." Luther's breathing was ragged and his loud yells wavered.
"I have already lost one of the only ones I loved and you're the only one that I have left! I have no other fucking reason to be alive than to be with you and make you happy! I am trying my hardest just to see you smile or to see your sweet face glow but I just can't undo all the pain you've been through and all the hurt and sadness you feel! I'm sad too Radius! Every time you're sad or upset it rubs off on me and I can't feel better unless I can make your frown go away and see you smile! Right now this isn't the Radius I want! I want my Radius! The one I knew a few weeks ago who would smile for me and be so sweet and loving! This isn't my Radius right now! He's not here and he needs to come back! To come back for me!" Luther began to sob, shaking Radius with every sentence, his own heart was breaking from all the pent up emotions he had hidden from Radius and from all the fear of losing his mate to savages. Radius whimpered, he had never seen Luther like this and it scared him, Luther had never yelled at him or cried like this in front of him, it was new to the albino to see his lover this emotional. Luther lifted his head up and looked Radius right in the eyes, his own pale eyes glossy with tears and his cheeks streaked with them.
"I cried just like this when I lost you years ago...when you were killed by that fucking Recluse! You never knew and will never understand how heartbroken I was!...and how scared and ashamed I was when I realized that I had beaten you while in a trance last time we were captured! You won't Radius!" The grown man's voice beginning to quiet, though it still wavered with each word. "I feel horrible for ever doing that to you...I still hate myself for it...and when I see you limp or wince, I just feel my chest ache and I wish I could take all your pain and suffering away... and could make your body new again but I can't..." He now almost whispered, head hanging low and his eyes squeezed shut.
"L-Luther....." Radius said in shock, he never knew that Luther felt this strongly about everything, he was always acted so tough about everything. The blonde felt Luther's hands trembling and he frowned. He had always been the one who needed to be comforted and held, but now he felt like his role was switched for the first time.
Luther felt small, thin arms wrap around his neck, and a little body resting flush against his own. He slightly looked up to see Radius embracing him, and his own arms slid to wrap around that tiny frame. The man hid his face in the boys soft blonde hair and began to calm himself down. They held each other in silence, just comforting one another. They stayed like this for what seemed like hours, and Luther actually felt like he was going to finally sleep. Both he and Radius were beginning to doze off.
Until the large metal door flew open, blinding light filling the room, and a dark figure stood just within the threshold.